You say

Everything i say is sad...

i say THERES A REASON FOR EVERYTHING
NOTHING HAPPENS FROM NOTHING...

As i hobble along

And soon enough, ill be a forgotten face, with a forgotten name

no bells will ring and we'll pass each other as if we never knew

what it was like to have butterflies in our tummies or what our first kiss was and how the sparks flew like fireflies on a still night, or how we used to smell or feel like

soon enough this heart will stay where it is and its pieces not picked up

you will be moving on with what you do

and i remain where i always was..

pretending i didn't feel as much pain at all...

what the mouth does not speak is not what the heart does not feel

And so i see thou art different

less input in communication of feelings

and me sinking slightly under the water

your slightly letting me drown

you seemed moved away from the position i once 

understood you were in

and i dont feel safe in my position i once thought was bullet-proof

i wish not to say anything for im walking down a street

i once knew i wasn't alone

the street was happy and covered in colourful skies

and trees made of cotton candy

the birds would sit on my shoulder and sing in my ear

the sun would smile at me and never let me cold

the clouds would lift me up every now and then to make sure id never fall

that was when i thought u were right by my side

now that i turn my head

you are still far far away, iv walked much further

and you are have taken a different road..

im hoping we will one day meet on

Quietly

I silently cry, because i dont know what you are
I silently cry because im hurt
i sit in my room, looking up at the stars
not knowing who i am, or where u are

I look in the mirro and see nothing but shame
why do i put up with rubbish and pain
when it breaks my heart
and drives me insane

I walk to the table and view the picture of us
the very first few when about me you would fuss
when u were gnna come see me and was all the excite
nowdays its as if you are more usy at night

I wish i had the old days back
where ud come and surprise
take you to places and see the sun rise

i wish you knew what you wanted
and love me the honest way
because i dont know wether its best
i go or stay....

Quietly im saddened, Quietly i quiver
something that breaks my heart and makes me shiver
stop the nonesense, stop the pain
i need my sunshine, no more rain...

This would be nice

- A man with:

-Honesty
-Loyalty
-Willingness
-Pride
-Dignity
-Self-repect
- Respect for me
-Romantic
- Sweet
- Looks after my needs
-Tells me when im missed
-Tells me when im thought about
-Someone who is not afraid to speak the truth even if it hurts me, because he loves me that much he doesnt want to hurt me ever again...


Where are you?

MISSING PERSON REPORT

Where are you?
You were here, then you left, then came back again..
i used to hear from you everyday
now where have you gone?

Tangled mangled

I sit here and take take take ur attitude
and you expect me to brush it off like it was nothing
like u havent done enough damage
u still pick at me like a scab on a grazed knee
dont you feel any remorse?
dont you feel you've hurt me enough
than to make me put up with ur mood swings cz of ur stress unrelated to me?

what about my stress huh?
what about my world that once revolved around YOU?
what about what i feel with no explanation?
what about appreciation that iv not done damage to you?
or make you suffer?
no, you dont even care, u can just brush me off and go off to ur duties as if i never existed?
and at this crucial time, its got nothin to do with juggling or balancing or what ever rubbish u feed me
u can take an hour or two and explain what u did, and what u gnna do about it
but no, i again..as usual..have to wait till things are convinient for YOU
u can never just settle something right there and then

Why am i not good enough?
have i not given you what you want or need?
have i not always been there?
it doesnt even take 2 phone calls for me to answer
it doesnt even take me days before making u feel cared about
im weak, im hurt, im being kicked when im down
and the funny thing is...
i love you too much to make u suffer likewise
i even tried to make this easy for you, when u x even deserve it!

look at me, and walk on my head again, step on me some more
u havent yet realized how i put myself out here for you
and here i am, the idiot, doing everything in my willpower
to make you understand something, you dont even seem willing to learn.

Time waits for noone!! you make the time!!

About you

I could dream of you and wake up with a tear in my eye

because that is how beautiful you are

that is how special you are to me

and that reminds me of how our atoms are entwined

and are able to create something amazing

even you couldnt imagine.

Whatever it is

You know where i am
You know what i feel
You know ur being silly
You know u dot need to be hurt in any way

coz thats not what i intend.

you explained ur truth
iv explained mine..

part 2

On the 1st page of our story
the future seemed so bright
then this thing you did, that was so evil
i dont know why im still surprised

even angels have, their wicked schemes
and you take that to new extremes
but you'll always be my hero
even though youve lost your mind

now the gravel
in our voices
glasses shattered from
the fight
and this tug of war
you'll always win
EVEN WHEN IM RIGHT
and its sick that all these
battles are what keeps me satisfied

so maybe im, a massacre
i try to run
but i dont want to ever leave
even when the walls are goin up
in smoke with all our memories

(PARTS OF LOVE THE WAY YOU LIE PRT 2)

No Coldness

This isnt strange
this isnt unfair
this isnt deranged
or too much to bare

This isnt a fault
nor does it cause me pain
This isnt a lesson
nor does it rain

Im not hurt
nor am i of scorn
Im not filled of hated
nor wish i wasnt born

This wont teach me anything
This will only make me weak
this wont even sting
or make my tears seep

BUT IT IS,I AM, AND IT WILL, AND IT HAS

BUT EVENTUALLY IM NOT, I WONT, I WILL AND I CAN..

For Afters

Its the air and the breeze that suddenly follows

Its the leaves that beautifully turn their colour in autumn

Its the ice cold water fresh from the mountains

Its the nice hot bath after a long day

Its the sugar rush after the cravings

Its the finale after a mere idea

Its the 1st cigarette during a break

Its the meeting after so long

Its the love after the tears

Its Me, wishing upon a star for you

Its ME still here Standing

Its Me trying to rid of my weakness

Its ME trying to smile

AND ITS YOU, THAT makes IT ALL WORTHWHILE

thank you

Lie to me

I just waana be numb
i dont wanna feel a thing
i dont want reality actually
reality stinks

How about i just pretend, that your cellphone
didnt even ring
and that i wasnt on the other side of the door
listening to everything

Please make me beleive
that theres nobody for you but ME
when i ask who were you talking to
tell me it was RAZALI

Baby i need, desperatly, desperatly
to beleive you
coz i wont be held
responsible
for what
i might do

TELL ME ANOTHER LIE!

Enrique Iglesias - Heartbeat ft. Nicole Scherzinger

Stopstealing my heart away...

No matter what it is you think..im not the kind of girl to blink, or give my heart away..
so stop stealing my heart away..unless you can look after it...

A forgotten smile

A HUG CAN ACTUALLY MAKE THINGS BETTER, MAKE US FEEL GOOD, CARED ABOUT, LOVED AND THOUGHT OF..

The worst of all feelings

Is being put down by the person you love, who has consistantly lied to you,
covered his tracks, lied again and again, now even about the smallest thing

and when you try to confront the issue, ur called nasty names

and you just sit on the phone listening to him call you these nasty names as if you are the one in wrong


I have never actually felt my heart break right after it had been broken
the lump in my throat just got bigger
and the pain is sharper than the 1st time it happened

The best part is, even when i was heart broken, i didnt call you any names whatsoever
even though you damn right deserved it

how much more ungrateful can one be

Quotes on LOVE

Sometimes your nearness takes my breath away; and all the things I want to say can find no voice. Then, in silence, I can only hope my eyes will speak my heart.

You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly.

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.

Love is like a friendship caught on fire: In the beginning a flame, very pretty, often hot and fierce, but still only light and flickering. As love grows older, our hearts mature and our love becomes as coals, deep-burning and unquenchable.

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her...

Those who are faithful know only the trivial side of love; it is the faithless who know love's tragedies

It seems right now that all I've ever done in my life is making my way here to you

A faithful heart makes wishes come true

I will have poetry in my life. And adventure. And love. Love above all. No...not the artful postures of love, not playful and poetical games of love for the amusement of an evening. but love that...overthrows life. Unbiddable, ungovernable, like a riot in the heart, and nothing to be done, come ruin or rapture

I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.

Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime. Lead me, save me from my solitude. Say you want me with you, here beside you. Anywhere you go, let me go, too. Love me, that's all I ask of you.

Look. I guarantee there'll be tough times. I guarantee that at some point, one or both of us is gonna want to get out of this thing. But, I also guarantee that if I don't ask you to be mine, I'll regret it for the rest of my life, because I know, in my heart, you're the only one for me

Here's one sad truth in life I've found

While journeying east and west 

The only folks we really wound
Are those we love the best.
We flatter those we scarcely know,
We please the fleeting guest,
And deal full many a thoughtless blow
To those who love us best. 

An un-natural disaster

Water- quenches thirst of the thirsty, and houses the waterworld

Wood- shelters the poor, and nature

Earth- mediates everything in this world

Fire- does damage or creates warmth

Wind- can enlarge a fire, cause a tsunami, 

remove people from their comfort zones and blow earth into a corner
Im experiencing the damage of fire that the wind made worse, i dont have any wood to shelter me, and the only water i have is that from my eyes.

i look to the EARTH, and even though it has little to offer..
it offers me hope and i can handle that for now....

The EARTH too looks at me for hope to give it some WATER, plant a tree to create WOOD, then create a small FIRE to keep me warm from the cold WIND... and it will continue in that circle until

i have enough wood, to BUILD shelter for myself
a fire to keep me WARM
GATHER enough water to drink and stay clean
and use the wind to dry any tears when things get hard


NATURAL RESOURCES CAN BE LOOKED AT AS RELATIONSHIPS TOO, U only need the basics to grow, it doesnt matter how long it takes, when u are determined..you will and no natural disaster can stop you..

I,you,I and why

I write and i feel when i write, i write what i mean, and i write what i cannot say,

 i write with emotion, i write with my head, i write for tomorrow, i write for today

I write for you, every letter every word

wether or not my posts are obsurd

but its all my feelings

and i like it that way

if different is your mood

what do you want me to say?

I am now all and numb

and im floating away

a bright white cloud

on a hot summers day

I wish to be here

i wish to be held

i wish you here now

but i know you've rebelled

My heart is a-fluster

and my mind in soil

my feelings a cluster

and my mood in spoil

Bare with me today

bare with me tomorrow

my mind is disturbed and my heart in sorrow

i think of you much

you will never ever know

pray for me please

coz im about to blow

When while

While you were confused, i was hurting

While you ask me questions, i couldnt answer

When u looked at me for seconds, i looked at you for minutes

When u thought i never understood, i did

When you thought of me, i thought of you more

When you left, i was always here

Standing here on the corner

by myself..