Ever so gently

Tear ducts get swollen, usually when in pain..

Its not out of asking for sympathy, nor is it out of asking for much...

when someone cry'S Its not just because they are sad...


its because they are HURT, and one can only hurt another, when one has feelings for the other.

Oh well...

No matter how hard you try, sometimes it goes un-noticed

Effort goes without saying, u do it because  u want to...

Making the one u love happy is something that need not be on occassion but any time u get the chance..

Communication is useless when u get angry at everything...

Even when i cry, i can still be screamed at instead of comforted....

What is this world coming to?

Why is it so hard to understand?

That kind of feeling..

When you get butterflies all over again..
When you just cant wait to see him again..
When you just wish u could stare at each other forever
When you wish you could pause the time even for a few hours
When smiles become giggles
When you feel he shyness kicking in again

When u realize time isnt enough
When 5 mins seems like 2 mins
When you talk much less
When you miss, and hope you are missed back
Doubt kicks in..

BUT AS USUAL, U TAKE ALL THAT DOUBT AWAY IN A MATTER OF MINUTES
AND MY SMILE COMES BACK ON MY FACE..

THANK U

Quest?on mark

If you fell in the 1st place...what about now?

If you love someone so much, why would you want to make them cry?
If you needed someone bad enough in your life, wouldnt you do anything for them?
If you know you could never love another, wouldnt you make everything alright with the 1 you love?
If you know ur needed, wouldnt you be there to make them happy?
If your in love like you say you are....

why is it so damn hard to show it?

If i

If i died..
would you cry..
would you miss me..
and find the days are harder to go by..

If i died..
would you ever regret
you didnt make better changes
and stop the bad, tempting things you used to let

If i died..
would you visit my grave
would you kiss upon my tombstone
and wish the time could have been saved

For now that im alive..
do you wish to make things great
would you do less to complicate
could you do more to love me
and less of the hate
will you look at what i have to give
and not make me wait....

Dont say

Dont you ever say i dont think of you
because i see you wherever i go
besides the odd distance from time to time
you are everywhere just so you know

Im writing this, just so you see
you are never too far away from me
I think of you, and im again inspired
to write again and not be tired

you are like the stars , your are like the moon
and i will be seeing you very soon
i now sometimes life isnt too fair
but if u find at all u miss me
just know im there..

Physically, emotionally and in spirit, you know me..and i know YOU

As of now

At this point in time, maybe im thinking of the future a bit too much? is it wrong to fantasize about my wedding day? how many kids i want? what my own family would be like?
At this point in time, i no longer enjoy hardened up parties and hung-over mornings
i no longer want my fone to be off the hook all the time with random friends asking me out
i dont want to be out every single weekend with a full agenda of non-stop madness and drama

Am i getting too old before my time? am i seeing a bigger picture? i dont want to regret this feeling..silly...how can i regret it, its what i feel, im more focused on my career and a life of love..i dont even need to juggle it..
why do i get the feeling ill be pushed into the dirty puddle again, once its convinient for someone else...
why do i get the feeling, that someone else wont be strong enough to see beyond the fine line of having to grow up...

im not saying my learning of life has ended, no way...but i just dont want the same things i used to..
i want to be settled down, i want to be able to come home to someone who adores me, someone who misses me when were apart..
someone who respects me even when in anger, someone who will come see me when im not feeling well...

My ideas of life may be different, i wanna travel, but i dont travel alone, i dont want to travel alone, when i do travel, i would want it to be with the person who wants to see the world with me, and wishes nothing but that. I dont want to be put in 2nd pace in someones heart,nor should i..

i dont wnt expensive dinners,when i can do that myself
i dont want a car or things.. i buy my own
i want something that costs nothing..Honesty, i want love, big love and undeiniable adoration, i want to be number 1, i want to be committed to and be respected.

Thats all i need to get me thru life, i feel im content,...but at the same time i feel like i give and give and give ..and still waiting for the traffic light on the other side to turn green, yet..nothing...

Expansion

Sometimes i think my insecurities are a from a fear
i admit, im scared of being hurt, simply because i dont handle hurt very well
im afraid of being cheated, because its happened one too many times
im scared of being made a fool with an open heart
i tend to become afraid of the feeling regarding something i strongly dislike, for what i dislike brings me anger and hatred.

Im not afraid of lions, or tigers or bears, im afraid of this fear inside of me..
this fear i have has ruined me, its going to ruin those around me too if i dont stop it now..
i need to stop being so afraid of what i feel, and just let it go...
i need to build those walls back up and keep my ak47 on alert

im so used to being the cushion for everyone...i realise now i dont have have a cushion, i dont have anyone to hold my needles...i now realize i can only hold the needles myself, as much as i might get pricked, or stung i got to do it on my own...

i guess some people cnt handle others emotions as well as we would like them to...

harden up girl, its gnna start now...