This little heart.

When i look at you...i see so much POTENTIAL as a person, as a son and as a partner..
yet, why do my eyes deceive me so at times, im blinded by this ever beating, red blooded heart of mine. This muscle in my chest, it beats, for me, for YOU ever faster, and at times its alive with laughter, and also with tears. 


What this little heart of mine feels, overcomes many fears i have, yet it is still unsure, almost in comparison to a pet in a new home..it wants to know more of its owner as much as it does fear the WHAT-IF. 


From what it tells me, it cant surely love another, no..not this way. It bleeds with passion, yet it bleeds with the fear of what this owner might do with it. Its no longer mine, im no longer in control of its possession, or how it reacts, it has a mind of its own and it moves at every word spoken, every action taken and every feeling felt to its every inch, it shivers, and it calms down, it even suffers from lack of sleep at the very thought of you.


Its at its utmost happiness, when its in close proximity with yours, its back-flips and turns up-side down the more it knows you are near and at times wants to just be ripped out and place itself in your hand so that u can just see what its made of, how fast it beats, how this tiny thing is actually quite big on the inside, but shares no room for no other but yourself and i. 


even though i no longer possess it, i BEG YOU..please take care of it, im not capable of its control anymore.


This little heart of mine.

Hello April

Aahh April, One of my favorite months..why? Coz my birthday is on the 29th! i have a month to plan exactly what i would like to do, and as usual make sure my friends go home completely wasted lol...

24 YEARS being me..its been one hell of a roller-coaster, been working for almost 1 year and a half now, it aint easy having to drag myself there in the morning either, but we all gotta do it. KA-CHINGGG is the most necessary nowday in this time and age..we all gotta start somewhere, but im loving it.

The older im getting, the more i tend to look back on my previous mistakes, and where i went wrong, and yes there are many things id rather not remember, but then again, hurt only makes you stronger eventually, im proud to say that im learning and i know i have much more to learn. Theres no limit book or any time frame to learn things, some of us die without even learning what love is, or even how to hold our breath under-water, everyone has their own pace in life, and the rest is up to god.

This month im going to interviews for new jobs, just to broaden my horizons, and do something fun and that i enjoy, photography, be it behind the camera or in front of it, its fairly new 4 me but this company they handle the photo's and they are one of the largest international co's too selling quality photo's to companies in anything from Advertising to News Stations. Quite exciting.

Its friday, so im trying to keep my spirit high 4 this weekend and enjoy as much as i can..

whoop whoop!