Sometimes

I have to admit, i love giving at any time for any reason, it makes me happy and seeing THAT SMILE ON THEIR FACE WHEN THEY GET IT, AND THEY ARE ALL EXCITED AND HAPPY and Cheerful.


But, why do i feel like im losing out somehow. I dont expect anything to be very honest..but it just sucks when it only comes on Birthdays... :( ... DAMMIT     and then it gets even more awkward when u cant hold it in and you start asking why or when u will get urs like some pathetic dog begging to be shown appreciation. then the issue of not having own money comes in which is totally retarded coz hell if i can everyone else can, its the effort that counts. even if its only pen and paper. even if its made from 10 matchbox's its WORTH something... this sucks really feeling like this.